A Rough Night...
Last night was a rough one. Brad had sold his pickup this past Saturday and so he wanted to go looking for another pickup. We had found some online and there were a few just like he wanted in Longmont, about 30 miles away. Of course, we didn't plan ahead and actually call to see if the dealerships still had the used pickups and we didn't mapquest for directions. So we drove around aimlessly until we finally stopped at a Walgreens and I made Brad go in for directions.
I was being a grump and told him I'd stay in the 4Runner. He'd been gone no more than 2 minutes when I happened to look up at the intersection in front of me and saw a dog happily trotting across the busy 4 lane road. I held my breath but couldn't close my eyes. He made it across the first 2 lanes and I thought he might actually make it when a white van going way too fast, hit him on the front driver's side. The dog, a chow, flew back into the turning lane of the opposite side of traffic. I couldn't get my door open fast enough....it was like slow motion.
As stupid as it was of me, I ran through the first two lanes of traffic to where he was. I ran up behind him to scoop him up and in between his yelps, he looked up at me and let me tell you, I will never forget that look. Those eyes were full of pain and pleading for help. I scooped him up and carried him back to the side of the road where I laid him down. And in just a few seconds, he quit fighting. His body went limp and he would only breathe every few seconds. I knew what was happening, his lungs were filling up with blood. He was dying in front of me. I've seen it before. By the time the police came, I knew he was seconds away from death and that was how I last saw him.
I didn't say a word the rest of the night, I don't think I deal with this kind of stuff the right way. I just want to curl up in a ball and isolate myself from the world.
So why am I writing this? Not really sure. Maybe it's just my way of trying to deal with it, though people are wondering why I'm crying at work right now. All I could think about was how modernized this world is becoming. That something so innocent could be crushed so quickly. It's just not fair, I hate that life is not fair. But I'll tell you what, I hugged my dogs a little harder last night and I hope you all do to.
Last night was a rough one. Brad had sold his pickup this past Saturday and so he wanted to go looking for another pickup. We had found some online and there were a few just like he wanted in Longmont, about 30 miles away. Of course, we didn't plan ahead and actually call to see if the dealerships still had the used pickups and we didn't mapquest for directions. So we drove around aimlessly until we finally stopped at a Walgreens and I made Brad go in for directions.
I was being a grump and told him I'd stay in the 4Runner. He'd been gone no more than 2 minutes when I happened to look up at the intersection in front of me and saw a dog happily trotting across the busy 4 lane road. I held my breath but couldn't close my eyes. He made it across the first 2 lanes and I thought he might actually make it when a white van going way too fast, hit him on the front driver's side. The dog, a chow, flew back into the turning lane of the opposite side of traffic. I couldn't get my door open fast enough....it was like slow motion.
As stupid as it was of me, I ran through the first two lanes of traffic to where he was. I ran up behind him to scoop him up and in between his yelps, he looked up at me and let me tell you, I will never forget that look. Those eyes were full of pain and pleading for help. I scooped him up and carried him back to the side of the road where I laid him down. And in just a few seconds, he quit fighting. His body went limp and he would only breathe every few seconds. I knew what was happening, his lungs were filling up with blood. He was dying in front of me. I've seen it before. By the time the police came, I knew he was seconds away from death and that was how I last saw him.
I didn't say a word the rest of the night, I don't think I deal with this kind of stuff the right way. I just want to curl up in a ball and isolate myself from the world.
So why am I writing this? Not really sure. Maybe it's just my way of trying to deal with it, though people are wondering why I'm crying at work right now. All I could think about was how modernized this world is becoming. That something so innocent could be crushed so quickly. It's just not fair, I hate that life is not fair. But I'll tell you what, I hugged my dogs a little harder last night and I hope you all do to.
posted by Audrey at 8:26 AM
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8 Comments:
So sorry to hear about this Audrey - that is so sad. I adore animals and hate when this sort of thing happens too.
:( Oh Audrey! I'm soooooo sorry that that happened to you! HUGE (((hugs)))... hope you feel better soon...
~Marsha
I don't know what else to say, except how sorry I am that you had to go through such a traumatic event. You're an angel to animals, that's all there is to it. Cry all you want, you deserve it. BIG HUG!!!!
Oh, how awful! As the owner of Chows, this is so hard to hear. I know it was especially hard for you to watch it and then not be able to do anything to help him. Big hugs!
I am sooo sorry! I hope you are feeling better soon. Not many people would run into traffic to try to save a dog that had just been hit. Carla commented that 'you're an angel to animals' and I think she hit it right on the head. BIG HUGS!!
oh audrey! my heart went heavy while reading this. soooo sad. i am so sorry for you and the poor dog you tried to help.
he got to look into the eyes of someone who cares about him and other animals as much as you do, and maybe he knew that.
Oh Audrey, I am so sorry you had to go through that. Your love for animals is truly a gift and the fact that this dog was lovingly held by you in his last few moments wasn't just a coincidence. You were at the right place at (unfortunately) the right time.
You are an amazing woman Audrey, truly!!!
O Audrey, I got tears in my eyes reading this and I am still old .... What a terrible thing to withness and my heart goes out to the dog and the people who he belonged to.
Big hug...
~ Monique /jomi
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